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So I havent been on here in forever cause I dont have internet protection on my laptop and I hate coming on here on my phone. But I am in serious need of some venting. I would honestly like to know what the fuck is wrong with my family. I would like to know what possesses my parents to tell all of my family members all of my personal business. I did not want to ANYONE know about my mistakes because yes I am ashamed and embarassed. They have no right in any way to tell other people my business. If I dont want other people to know that is my choice. And why in the world would you want to tell them something like that anyway?? I know you guys are probably lost and wondering what the fuck Dalicia of all people couldve done thats so bad. But trust me. its bad. Even good girls make mistakes, and this one is affecting me for the rest of my life. Which leads me to my next issue. It was MY mistake. on top of telling all of my family what i did, they continue to tell them that it is my bf’s fault when he had nothing to do with it. I understand if you dont necessarily like him but we have been together for over 3 years, you would think youd get the fuckin picture that we are NOT breaking up and we love eachother. So I want to know why the fuck my parents are spreading lies about him. Telling my family that he doesnt treat me right, he yells at me, hes mean to me, etc. like really? Its not enough that you hate him for a dumb ass reason, now you have to have other people hate him over lies? Thats bullshit. Now I have my uncle threatening to beat the living shit out of him if we stay together. What the FUCK is wrong with my family? I understand that my family loves me and wants to protect me but the shit is not fuckin true. But their acting like im in a fuckin abusive relationship or some shit. He has never purposely hurt me physically or mentally, and no matter how much awful shit my parents say about him he has never said anything ill about them to anyone. And of course I cant say anything cause anything I say is an “excuse” for him because I am so naive and dumb right? Do you really think I would stay with someone for so long if he didnt treat me right? Yes, we have had some major issues in the past, we have our fights and our disagreements. What relationship doesnt? No one has ever been there for me or supported me as much as he has for the past 3 years. Im sick of the drama and the bullshit people want to bring into my life. Get the fuck over yourself and stop trying to control my life. Cause that right there is why I left the first time and you are more than definitely going to make me want to leave all you assholes again. I have never been so hurt, confused, stressed, and depressed in my life. I dont feel like me anymore. I am never happy or bubbly anymore. Everyone is draining the life from me. I just want to be happy and be myself again. Im about to be 20 with no job, not in school, in legal trouble, and my family is fuckin nuts. No one even knows what the fuck stress is until they step into my shoes. Only a few would be able to even last a day.